To be free, I was once told, I have to be a slave. Funny how that's still true.

Mother, you had me,
But I never had you.

I wanted you,
You didn't want me.

So I, I just gotta tell you
Goodbye, goodbye.

Father, you left me,
But I never left you.

I needed you,
You didn't need me.

So I, I just gotta tell you
Goodbye, goodbye.

Children, don't do
What I have done.

I couldn't walk,
And I tried to run!

So I, I just gotta tell you
Goodbye, goodbye.

~~ John Lennon, "Mother"

♥

(But HELLO.)

I am an orphan. But the public has adopted me. I never take anything for granted. I may slip any minute.

~~ Eartha Kitt

Read my profile! You'll get a better idea of me there!

I'm an awkward extrovert. I'll be an awkward extrovert until the day I die, and they'll have to bury me twice.

Most of my entries are locked, so you'll have to befriend my blog if you care to read more. A big kid at heart, I garner lots of fun things that include stamps from rating communities, usually rating communities with animated themes. Below is a sample, and there are many more stamps under the cut. They should explain more about what I'm like, but let it be known that the majority of my actual blog entries are serious natured. Scroll past this one for unlocked examples.



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I know I have other stamps for Marina Del Rey (Disney's The Little Mermaid: Ariel's Beginning) besides these. They're somewhere. I lost track. I'm the biggest Marina Del Rey type you'll ever meet in your life, minus the killing streak and adding in maternal feelings.



This one is from my own stamping group! Come over to mythologique_r!













I think it's safe to say that I'm definitely the Sophie (Fox's Anastasia) type and the Uberta (Richard Rich's The Swan Princess) type, too!

The rest are behind the other cut... Note that I have not saved and uploaded every stamp, as I've got so many and Photobucket is acting like a pain in the anus these days...

( This is long-winded, just like me! )

Stop snoring, James.

Stop making noises while you sleep, everyone.

I haven't had a good sleep for much too long. I'm more tired each day. How I keep on going is beyond me.

What am I doing? Why, in the light of day, do I take on so much only to regret it in the night? I wish I wasn't so committed and I wish I were better at finding a temporary new abode for us. I am tired. If nothing else, I am going to fall over from lack of sleep while working. I'm an idiot for applying for another part time job, too. Damned sympathy. That other job, if I'm hired, will be working at a program that teaches life skills to disabled adults. Like I said, damned sympathy.

I am tired to tears! I need sleep desperately. I normally have pseudoseizures and all kinds of meltdowns without enough sleep. That I've made it for these weeks without is astounding. I don't really CARE what the reason is. I just want to rest!

Jubilee is a miniature female James with my eyes in more "normal" shape. I think her eyes are larger than mine ever were, but all babies seem to have larger eyes.

Eulalia is the splitting image of me as a baby with James's eye color and an eye shape closer to mine.

Both have wound up with my original pug nose, although Jubilee's pug nose has also actually grown a lot like James's! I guess you haven't met my original pug nose, since that was the first thing I ever altered and the poor thing has been altered like crazy ever since. I missed it, aiming for a compromise of a nose and ending up with... pain. Benita has a pug nose, too. But most of you already knew that. James III (our son) also has a pug nose. This family should change its last name to Pug Nose, since we all have one.

Those who knew me in my younger years comment on Eulalia's resemblance to me all the time. Those who didn't know me then make similar remarks. I've also gotten a loud "Eulalia looks SO MUCH LIKE YOU THAT IT'S LIKE LOOKING AT YOU LOOKING AT AN ALIEN BABY MIRROR... IN A GOOD WAY! IT'S CUTE!"

I love am thrown off kilter by meeting people who are more awkward than me.

I've got some "new" pictures coming soon within the next month or so because I am bad about just buying gadgets and learning how to use them, and I'm wary in general thanks to Crazy Girl, but I've got adorable moments in tangible form beside me. They're a bit of a scattering of months. The twin girls never have paid attention to the camera, with the exception of Eulalia on one day. That's surprising, because Jubilee looks at her surroundings more than Eulalia does on average. These girls compliment each other nicely. (Of course they do. They're sororal twins.)

"Fraternal twins" is such a sexist term. I don't get it. My twins are sororal, not fraternal! They are girls!

I'm in such a springy good mood tonight. I had some company earlier this evening and my in-laws relieve me on the weekends, and I feel so loved. James is as sweet as ever. I think he's bored. I couldn't sit on the bed for hours because he kept trying to tickle me!

There is so much life in my home. There is so much life and love, and I have REPOPULATED THE EARTH WITH CUTE GENES. THE EARTH SHOULD THANK ME AND MY HUSBAND FOR THAT.

I ALSO HAVE STUDENTS THAT CALL ME PROFESSOR BOOBS. THAT'S FUNNY. I ALSO HAVE BECOME A VEGETARIAN AND IT WAS SO EASY. WHY DID I NOT DO THAT BEFORE?

I can't go to bed because my crazy husband will probably try to tickle my underarms and rear again!!! I take this as a sign that everything will be better than ever before. He's uncoordinated, but he's perfectly able to move his arms and I know he's trying to make me happy.

I would appreciate "friends" here not dropping me left and right like a firecracker without talking to me.

There aren't excuses for this silly kind of behavior toward a woman that you know as having issues with assurance.

Be on the lookout for a friends policy post.

Also, why did fantasymphony delete her journal? Is the deletion temporary, so she won't have to catch up while she is away?